Eh ?
Fun , Today, vry fun!
hsm 3's nice ;DD
Lololololololololol..
Came bck frm tuition at bout 950++
Tmr still got tuition, nxt sat aso,
aft tht thn no more le ;DD
yay (:
Ok, go le...
Byee (:
LOL..
Fast horh?
I'm gonna reply tags now xP

hereherehere!
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Wahahaha . (:
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The Dolls of Love
Another touching story, that things might not be what they seem. Surprises and the sweetest of them comes in small packages. And this story shows just that, don't underestimate the littlest of gestures for they might actually be the ones which you will remember for life.

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.

Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
grabbing me.

“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.

Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.

“I’m sorry”
He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!!“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eightyfive…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~”I dropped the dolls,
shocked.

“I….lo..ve…you??”I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

“I love you~ I love you~”It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.

“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much…

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

I love this story! :'D

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Damn lo ..
I keep forgetting whr is my links ==
Zzzzzzzz ..



FUN ! :D
Today went to jp orh..
Watch hsm 3 ;D
Thn went arcade lolololol..
Shh...
Don tell my sis ;D
If she no ,
She will do nth :D
RAWR ~
* Scared !! :D*
Wahahahahaha ;D
Went to arcade for long ,
Thn went popular ,
Bought a pen n high-light-er
;D
Happy oh..
:D
Lolololololol..
Aft tht, me n ql run home..
We reach ql hse tht time ,
I gave up :D
I took bus home.. ;D
Hee (:
Lols ..
ql , gloria , fathimah , jy , ft aso got go ;D
Lololololl .. End my post k.
BYEE (:



Lalalas (:
Woo (:

Labels: 100th post yeah.. ;D

Lols ..
Im back ;DDD
I wan work !
Nxt yr p6 !
Sian lo ..
):
I miss p4 ..
p5 .. balance nias ?
half nice , half not nice ..
no nice cus irritating ppl and mrs woon :x
nice cus > camp ! <3
Err ..
And NDP ?
Loads ;DD
P6 ....
I wish some ppl i hate will drop lo ..
I wish can go up to 2nd bended ?
1st bended= hopeless ..
Think cant ba ):
Mus work harder for science le !
Gogogogoogogogo ~
Go hohuixuan !


Lol .
Jus now, web-cammed xueling ..
Fun !
She told me she had to go ):
Memorise th price
See ?
MAKE ME JEALOUS !
Zzz
I wan go ~
Lolx ..
Sch hol bahhs ..
Maybe ..
I wan cut hair too ):
Tht time mommy bluffed me !
TT ...
Lame lor xueling
say she so old. .
I nxt yr P6 .
She?
2c
=.=
6-2=4 !
LOL
Jk lurh .
She sec sch orh .
So much older .
SHE LAO AH PEK AR ~
hee :D
She is just 24 months older mah ,
):
):
See ?
So small can work ..
I must be smaller !
So tht i can show off to her LOL
jkjk.
I not tht bad lo ..
Stupid xueling
Zzz
xuan yao to me !!!
tao yan
Zzz
Stupid ~
Stuppiakkkkk ~~~~~~`
Lols . byee ):

Labels: 1 more, 1 more ..., waiting :3 Today or tmr will it be decided -

Lolx ...
Secretly use comp but tio caught !
Zzz ..
Mommy don let me work ~
Lalas ,
Who cares .
Chg song .. AGAIN .
La la la ..
Damn ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Nth to say ..
I shall reply tags .. Although i've done it at cbox ._.

Lalas , Tags replied here :
Err ..

karyenx33 : thks for ur tag (: <3
I vry happy orh .

M@egan : Thks for relinking . And i will tag u :D

ql :] : Lolx .. Yeah , she came to tag . ;D And thks for ur taggy (:

qianyi :) : Lolx. Of cus i no u ... ==

jmjm : U got so hao xin to jy me meh? And damn u larh.. Tell u don gimme web u still give ==

fathimah : Thks for relinking .. Lolx.

Lalalas ~
now reli nth to do le . I shall go, G-O GO ~
BYEE (:

Labels: 2 more only ☺☻

TT ..
Mommy say holiday thn cut hair !
Zzz ...
SAD SAD LUR ):
Bluff me ):
TT
I WAN CUT !~
Cant .. ):
Hais ..
Holiday still got long long time ..
And ,
I wan go Genting again !
Lolx ..
Tht time march ..
Whole family went ..
Lots of ppl ..
Hee :D
Fun leh .
Too bad at tht time i don hav a blog :x
Cant post things ,
Lalalas.
:D
Ok larh .
Go lerhs.
Byee (:

Taggies replied here .. and cbox aso hav -.-

g0hjinqyann : RELINKED (:

M@egan : Wahahaha .. QL ownself tag nicer o.o { Eh .. idk why got th link thingy for ur name :x }

Err .. Think no more le bahhs ?
Hee :D

BYEE ~ =3

Labels: 3 more - Will it be today? Hmm .., CUT HAIR ~ TT

Yay .
:3
Mouse back to normal .
Tmr cutting hair :3
Happy .
LOLx .
ql .
Mai say i copy le orh..
Chg le! :3
LOLx.
Wahahaa ..
Tmr going cuz hse cut :3
Jus now went to coffeeshop ..
Eat ;3
Mommy and daddy workin thr .
Ah Long aso . LOLx.
Thts wad delphi call him . Wahaha.
We stay at coffeeshop vry long lor ..
And Jia Ling's hp is nice (:
Nicer thn mine ;D
Lolx ..
Sian lor ..
I want quickly tmr !
I wan cut hair ~~
LOLx.
How ql spell hairy dwarf : harry dwarf LOL .
Funny .
Tht time tuition I laughing like hell ar.
Hee :D
Let's blockquote awhile (:

Wahahahaha ~
Sian Sian sian sian !
Zzz ..
I wan go coffeeshop work XD
Can earn money,
Wahahaa,

Hee . Blockquote-ted
XD ..
I shall go .

Labels: Thrs 4 more to go .. I'll be waiting :3

Damn .
Mouse Still not ok yet ):
TT
I miss my normal mouse !
This mouse so difficult use
):
Ltr ,
Call my papa chg ):
So difficult use de .
Sad ):
Anw ,
Chg song XD
Chg alot time ,
All screwed ==
LOL .
Fun fun !
Chg vry fun ~

ql laoqonnq ! when can tag me again ? (: Lols . Fri , Still remb ? Me & u :] LOL I guai lorh ! Got say u horh . U leh >_> LOL .

Wahahhahaha .
What happened tht day ,
SECRET <3
hee :D
Lols .
Dono why few like posting so much lurh .
Lols .
ql not on yet ..
Sian .
ql say , she don wan audi alr .
LOL .
Zzz ...
Sian ..
Cant audi !
Cus ...
EXAM ! :3
LOL .
K .
I chg song le !
LOL
kk .
bye :]
hehs :D



Zzz ...
Lolx .
Mouse got prob .

Tags will be replied here , If i lazy go reply at Cbox thr .
Lolx :3

Wahahhaa .
:DDD
Posted for today . Gonna Chg Song .
Cus Kitt Yee's using this song :3
kk .
TATA <3



Zzz .
I'm getting damn fed-up with my mouse !
I press left de ,
Come out is right de things .
Don understan nvm .
Zzz .
Stupid mouse !
So difficult do things de lor ...
TT
I wan audi ~
Lol .
Nxt time barhs .
Lolx . (:
Gtg .
Late liaos :D
Byee ~

:D



I think I'm gonna chg blogskins again (:

To Fathimah :
I've deleted .
Zzz .
Nxt time chg link Say larh .
Zzz .

Anw ,
Very very very very long ..
Since i last posted (:
So now posting lurh .
QL baobei ..
When ur blog back ?
Monster <3
^^
Go find blogskin le .
Wahahaha .



i noe this blogskin jy use b4,,
lalals ~
hu cares :x
bluek ~
hahahahas.
lols.
care care..
just that...
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
...
NTH:D
lols..
i'm wondering why..
why..
why,,
why..
why...
I KEEP CHGING BLOGSKINS ~
LOL.
lalalas :D
i noe i'm lame =)
muahahahahaahhaahahhaha;
no need u care marhs....
bleks..
:p

:]

Give a big Big BIg BIG SMILE =)
be happy everyday :x
lols.
anw sians..
cus...
ytd, today, nxt mon & nxt tues..
tuition frm mornin 10 to 330..
and nxt tues i still have another tuition at 545 wor..
sian lurhs..
i hate this ~
today still got chi tuition..
sian
my audi got prob lerh ..
cant play liaos ~
TT
sad sad..
anw..
posted & updated..
my job has been done..
so bye ~
=)



wahahahahaha ~
i chg new bed ler :x
heheheh ~
anw,
im still vry sian O:
long long long long long long time since i last posted?
lols.
hoxueling, more worse,
no need care O:
lols..
ytd,
went to ql hse..
audi tht time, lols..
we make th audi girl
UGLY LYK SHYT ~
lalalas ~
i noe we're evil ~
blekk ~
:b
muahahahahhahaah ~
lols..
x.x
i'm tired le..
wanna slp !
lols..
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
audi got patch ~
wo ku le.
x.x
O:
wo lei le.
zai jian ~



Lalalas .
Today .
Sian lurh .
Sing for music test .
LOLs .
Natasha ..
Sing rongly .
Go make me laugh ..
Thn she ownself aso laugh ==
Diu lian si le .
Wtf .
Sian lorh .
Anw ..
Audi ...
Lvl 16 ;D
Finally ..
A clubber ler .
Waited for ages ~
Lols .
Last time , wan be freedom so much .
Now , clubber :D
Finally gotten my wish .
Now for th dono wad thing .
Dono called wad LOL
Finally .
Can chg blogskin le =)
So , i chged it .
Previous , was like ...
SHIT :D
Finally Chg le .
LOLs .
Ok larh .
Very Very late lerh .
BYEEEE ~ :D